Zoey was by far the strongest soul that I have come to know. How she fought through sickness and loneliness to greet me only with joy still awes me to this day. I know right now I have two wonderful dogs, Rickross and Zachary, but I can’t help but thinking back especially during this yuletide season to that dog that changed my life.
Like anyone, I go through trying times, and this month has been especially hard. We all find ourselves at some point, no matter how positive our outlook is, breaking down and just sitting on our beds, battling with doubts and sadness. We’re human.
Zoey was definitely no human, and when she would see me sad about something, I could see her tail wag as she leaped up on my bed to snuggle me. When I think back to it, I can’t help but start to tear up, because sometimes that’s just what we all need. We need a hug. We need someone to show up, to hold us and with no words necessary, let us feel that everything is going to be alright.
I spent a lot of my life struggling with emotions and feelings, confused between shutting them out or letting them overtake me. I was trying to find a balance, dealing with so much that was happening in my life… and yet, here it was. The answer, the evidence that true love really is unselfish and kind. Big beautiful and understanding eyes, the assurance I needed.
Truth be told, I feel a void in my heart now that she left… and I do know there are days I don’t remind myself of her on purpose…because it hurts. This is why she was more than a dog, she was an angel - and exactly the reason that I wanted to write this blog about her, because we all could learn so much from Zoey. Sometimes I find myself searching and hoping that she’ll come back again… but I do understand, I do know she will in the right time.
From her I learned so much about strength, and as I write this, I realize that there’s so much more for me to do in order to be a better person. Being good isn’t something to strive for, it’s something to already be. It really is a true test of strength to remain honest and live a life that you’ll always continue to be happy about. Leave your regrets at the door and live in the now and move forward into the future, while you don’t forget your past, take the good parts of it and let it strengthen you. And for the bad parts? Just remember they’re all lessons that God knew would come your way to shape you into the person you are now.
Be strong. Have faith.
Zoey didn’t know if she would live the next day, but that didn’t matter to her. What mattered to her was that she made me happy, and that she was able to make me feel better during the time she was here. I think back on her and that’s where I take a lot of my strength, of a little skinny dog that set aside her entire life (even food and toys, mind you!) just to be there for me.
Be there for the people that need you. Assure them and know that you are there to support and love them. It might be hard now, but you’ll have an impact on their lives that will forever change them.
Merry Christmas everyone.